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Last Saturday was out with my buddy and friend to this place for dinner…we had steamboat in Sri Petaling which near to Carrefour… It was not a fancy steamboat restaurant but the food was not too bad…I received some forward mails from friends about some funny signboard so I thought that can’t be real… I can’t believe that I actually saw one in the restaurant…

gosh the picture is not as clear… well it was a sign to lead to the gents… what so funny about this sign was the direction… "MALE - TURN LIGHT" it written there, how can they spell it wrongly… and the sign is still there… I didn’t manage to capture the female one…the female one was like  "FEMALE - TURN LEFT" but the black arrow at the bottom was showing the other way round…me and my buddy was just burst out and can’t stop laughing… We were just making fun of this sign and start to speak broken english… bad huh…

After the dinner we supposed to head to Liquid which all of us not sure where is this place… but it seems that something happened so plan cancelled and we switch to poppy again… was there for the rest of my entertainment Saturday night out…

What would you do when you found out the person you used to like he actually feel the same then? The satisfaction was there because he finally told you that like you back then… this is the result of shy and afraid to do a confession… when he did it then maybe we already two become one if you get what I mean… In our lives we just can’t missed the opportunity when we have… till now I think is too late for anything… Gosh that was like 6 yrs ago haha… it was a bittersweet feeling…

Today was a busy day for me…and this morning I received a sms from a long lost friend who I bum onto him 2 months ago which I didn’t see him for more than 3 or 4 yrs… a strange feeling that I had when I saw him… maybe because he was an old friend of mine and seeing him makes me realize time flies…gosh we actually didn’t see each other for so long…apart of me was telling myself that we are no longer the teenager that we used to be…. I’m glad I that saw him so that we can continue to build our friendship all over again… after so long only I realize that I still miss him…gosh when I was young I used to had a crush on this guy… hahaha thinking bout the old days just seems so sweet… so innocent when we were young… when you like someone just have a glance on him is already putting a big smile throughout your day… don’t have the thinking of getting together but just want to see him…. take every opportunity to see that person…and when we gather up as in a bunch of girls we start to talked about guys and guys only… which is cute, which is charming and which is handsome… back then we only fall for guy who are good looking…I just can’t help laughing thinking about how innocent back then… but it was only the memory that I could have right now… the feeling are different now… but still happy to see him… that is the end of the story of my long lost friend or should I said the guy that I used to have a crush on him ;P …

Some funny question has been popping on my mind…  How can a relationship survive when is started out with lust?? As the matter of fact that everyone know why it won’t last… was it simply because ppl don’t appreciate it?? Normally these two words just clash… In a relationship how can we make the lust to last?? Or do you want lust or last?? The moment you want it to last it will always go the other way round or vice versa…

In a relationship I guess this phrase won’t be wrong… "Let it happen when it happened, don’t force it to happen" …  not only apply to relationship I guess it does apply to friendship too… Is enough for tonite…I guess I’m too tired to continue to write all these confusion mind disturbing questions…

My day started out okay not until the killer haze is getting worse and worse when I’ve got errands to run… gosh after a few pit stop i can actually feel that the haze is all over me… I breathe with it and I even smell like it… yuck… smelly… the more you breathe with it you actually feel sick… I think is just like you are smoking constantly through out the day… and I can feel I’m hard to breathe…how I wish it will rain and wash it all away… I just don’t dare to be out there… I’ve smell enough… it is really bad… oh no… guess my health rate is dropping yet congested today…sigh…. I think the best is hide inside my bathroom and stand right under the shower haha… at least that will help to wash away a bit… haha…

"A lil msg to all my friends please drink lots of water"

Let me start with my Saturday outing… was out for a friend’s birthday party at his place in BU…when I reach there only I found out that I only knew few of them in the party… luckily I brought a girl friend of mine together with me… at least I won’t feel that lonely… and guess what?? I wore a same pants as my friend… and is a he not she… looking matching hey with the pants… in the beginning of the party I felt a bit out of place as I don’t know many ppl there…but as the crowd gets bigger you tend to fit in a lil… probably was the wine that I was drinking it helps me to fit in as well… It was a barbeque party so its rather hot…and **(Pat, the beef taste good)**… because of a promise that I make so ended up have to leave early… but that night didn’t end just like that… it go on and we head to poppy and for the rest of the night of my outing… back to Jenn’s place at 2++am, after my usual night routine I can’t wait for another second to bed…slept at 3++ and that’s it for my Saturday night… I got up at 8am the next morning because of my breakfast plan that I make earlier on that week…and my appointment is at 9am… I’m too tired and lazy to get out of the bed so I decided to give my friend a call to ffk him… Feeling bad for him…right after I called him I just continue lazing around the bed until 8.45am and finally out of the bed and take a cold shower to wake myself up… gosh it was cold…when I’m all done, the clock already meet the time that we( me and Jenn) suppose to meet another friend(James) who brought us to this new church in sunway…because of we don’t want to skip our breakfast and we took not more than 10mins for the cooking and eating… and then we head to the place that we suppose meet James… After the church service we went for lunch with some church’s member, that’s when I realize I’ve got few missed calls…and there it goes to return calls… after the planning and meeting… I decide to go to 1utama to meet few of my friends and do some shopping too…was there for the whole afternoon couldn’t find myself anything… don’t know if I loose weight, can’t imagine I just couldn’t find anything that suits me…  and there it goes my Sunday afternoon at 1 utama… after all the shopping I went for dinner with a buddy and her going to be hubby and another friend… after the dinner just drop by 2 of my friends house… for some visiting…and after all that I start to wonder how nice if I’ve got a chance to stay in a small condo on my own or maybe with couple of good friends… it’s going to be nice… in reality that don’t seems happening… so all I can do is just imagine…so today it was a progressive day for me but no doubt it was a good day…

Here I am at another sleepless night…Sigh… things happened too quickly, within second with just a simple decision you could change from a sweet and wonderful night to become a disaster night… Should I just let it go with the flow or should I be more aware on every single step that I take…I wish I can be as open as every other girl to just do what ever I want and don’t have to care what happen next…Unfortunately inside me there is still a conservative me that never been away from me… I’m tired… the more careful I am, the more misunderstand i’m going to create…I guess is time for me to let go the sweet and sad memory that I keep inside me…Is 4.30am now… I’m physically and mentally tired but emotionally that don’t allow me to rest in peace…There is so much that I want to write but I just couldn’t type it out…gosh what have I done to make myself so confuse…this weird feeling just don’t seems to go away tonight… I’m too tired to continue… just hope when I wake up the next morning things are going to be different…

Thank god today was a free day for me… Can you imagine that I need to work today and yet I slept at 3.30am last nite?? Sleepless night though, doesn’t know why… Lots in mind… tired of thinking so much…from the moment I stepped in my office I’m feeling sleepy hahaha…Luckily I don’t have many things to do… finished up my unfinished work in less than an hour and I start replying emails and chatting up with some friends… I’m taking up my lunch time to write something about my day… lately my schedule got mixed up… I haven’t take my lunch when I suppose to take now… Gosh it’s been a week that I had my lunch at 3pm… Either I’m too busy to get my lunch or I got stuck in the office with no transport and is all thanks to my brother who took my car out…till now still haven’t come back… luckily I had heavy breakfast today or else.. I’ll be dead in hunger…  Sometimes I was wondering being spontaneous will I give people a wrong impression…well I hope not…lately meet lots of people some old and new friends… is great to catch up with some old friends…wow now I realize I’ve got lots lots of friends out there…I’m thankful…but I know friends come and go so is still up to us to take the initiative to simply make a call to keep in touch…I’ve met ppl who are so afraid to keep in touch with others…funny isn’t it… don’t know are they being shy or think too much… I guess to me friends can never say enough…I better stop here and eat something or else tonight I won’t be enjoying my dinner on my favorite food…