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For the past weeks or months i should say is holiday for me… been out of the country and back here… even that i’m back here, I’m still in the holiday mood… Eversince that i came back everything changed… just like a friendship that being different, people that you are hanging out with is different, the feeling you had in this place that you are living is different etc etc… too many changes, sometimes it makes me feel a lil uncomfortable… but what can i do or expect? this is life… things changed when time pass us by… Why do i have this uneasy feeling? although i’ve been out and enjoying myself but still somehow is not complete… Just like last night and tonight… Last night i was out at this usual club but the feeling i had in there is like i’m in another world compare to those people who were dancing and drinking… I guess maybe because i wasn’t feeling that well thats why… and as for tonight, by right i shall feel happy on what had happened, but the moment i step inside my house, deep down inside i isn’t that happy after all… maybe because i can sense there would be some changes after tonight… so what if i want it to stay? things are just beyond my control… I think is time for me to move on… what is tomorrow going to be? I think it doesn’t matter… just like what i read in the that email, this is one email that i really want to share… i think i will just paste the whole email in this blog so that you will understand what i’m trying to say…

A well-known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a
$20.00 bill.

In the room of 200, he asked,

"Who would like this $20
bill?"

Hands started going up.

He said, "I am going to give this
$20 to one of you

but first, let me do this.

He proceeded to
crumple up the $20 dollar bill.

He then asked, "Who still wants
it?"

Still the hands were up in the air.

Well, he replied, "What
if I do this?"

And he dropped it on the ground

and started to
grind it into the floor with his shoe.

He picked it up, now crumpled and
dirty.

"Now, who still wants it?"

Still the hands went into the
air.

My friends, we have all learned a very valuable lesson.

No
matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it

because it did not
decrease in value.

It was still worth $20.

Many times in our
lives,

we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt

by the
decisions we make and

the circumstances that come our way.

We feel
as though we are worthless.

But no matter what has happened
or

what will happen, you will never lose your value.

Dirty or
clean, crumpled or finely creased,

you are still priceless to those who
DO LOVE you.

The worth of our lives comes not in what we do or who we
know,

but by WHO WE ARE.

You are special- Don’t EVER forget
it."

Although it is just another forwarded mail but i think is a good reminder…

I’m sleepy but still want to post something and is better to tell or write it out then to keep it inside… Why do I feel so strange? After so many times that i went to melbourne and come back nothing special was just a lil rest and relax kinda holiday… but this time is different, if you would to ask me why so different? I really can’t give you an answer…I guess I miss the place, my sis and her kids and i also know, that would be the first country that i think i want to stay there for good… all these while i don’t feel that bad but this time really makes me want to go back to melbourne as soon as possible… I guess i prefer the life there then here in malaysia… isn’t it bad? the betrayer haha… some kinda of depression that keep coming back to me… back for almost a week but my heart is there, wow sounds so deep hahaha… as if melb is my lover keke… I think my mind just can’t think no more… this piglet need to sleep… everyday been feeling tired… what again??!! jet lag arrgh…  shitty feeling… I think i need to get some sleep before i can’t think of more to share… good nite…